Clouds
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"A revolution; a time for change. And brother, it has taken far too long to arrive!" - Allen Ansell I looked out of the window. The sky had a strange appearance; above was an ominous grey cloud that stretched from the east to the west – as far as the eye could see. It had a straight, but fuzzy edge – like an advancing wave – and beyond that, ahead, towards the never ending north, was blue, blue sky. I wondered if it was a mirror of my life? Of where we are going? Sometimes, there is just such a boundary between love and hate, sadness and happiness, light and dark. In the coming of the night, when the sun slips lower and lower behind the threatening rain-clouds, and then, briefly, lights up your life from that tiny gap near the horizon, before descending, finally, in magnificent redness… Those brilliant moments can be worth a lifetime of tears. Once, I watched such a sunset; watched the sun’s magnificent and defiant farewell display. Spilling, first, impossible blue-pink edges to the clouds. Sky-Blue-Pink we named it… And then, with linear advance, deepening the blend of red until, like blood smeared over cloudy mountains, it was torn away, to fresher pastures; into other people’s lives. In the umbra of that moment, with the colour of your skin exaggerated by its redness, I saw again that I loved you. And in the rouge reflection in your eyes there was nothing but beauty; on your blooded lips, nothing but sweet softness. In your words, nothing but truth. And then, when the sun had disappeared, and we were left in the greying twilight, left beneath that dark grey cloud … I sensed her presence. She, who paints the trompe l’oeil of the friendly mother-in-law onto her crocodile’s snout. She with the fire-lit eyes and the burning passion of hatred. Her overpowering, oppressive, weighty cloud pressing down upon our love, and like that cloud’s edge, through the window, a wave, waiting to douse the flames of our passion and our love. A wedge waiting for a niche into which to be driven. We were young enough to disregard; to brush away the bitter words, the jibes, the cutting remarks, the interference, the disharmony, the arguments, the ‘show offs’. Yet, did we? For her presence was unbroken, her ever present need unspoken but shown in acrid plumes of smoke that arose from behind us, spat from narrow jealous lips, and hammered in by her beak - like a tattooist’s pen tap, tap, tapping into our irritated flesh. She is even less subtle now: Age may appear, at times, to have mellowed her attacks, but then again, she speaks: to make hideous noises about you; veiled remarks, accusations; pulls faces behind your back. Grants you unrequested, and undeserved, rites of a slave. Lies with accustomed ease, stabs with practiced pecks, and blindly turns a son’s love to dust. Out of the window I see the grey cloud rolling back; exposing more northern sky. Having passed the border between the grey cloud and the blue sky, I am tearing myself away from her. I am freeing you and I. After all these years, finally ceasing to turn the fabled, and very bruised, cheek once more. Her apron strings are severed, and hang, useless, from her hands. I have finally found the justification and the strength, to turn the key that opens up the cage, and together we are free to fly under that bright and blue, blue sky, that extends onwards in all directions, forever. © Allen Ansell 2006, 2023
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